INVISIBLE BOAT

For so many times I wonder why a lot of residents of this big ball earth always want to live.

It was 9 pm, I was standing at the corner of the street waiting for a bus going home, when I noticed a man, holding a long stick while walking. He stood right after me. I noticed that he was not being bothered on my stares at him. When I glance on his face at his right side, I noticed that he’s not wearing sunglasses. So, I started talking to myself, why he’s not wearing sunglasses and why he has he this stick? So, to break my oddity, I took a few steps to be closer to him. And then , I ask him..”kuya, magtatanong lang po, sa ganitong oras po ba may dumaraan pang jeep na may karatulang pa South Mall?” then I heard a voice, “Pasensiya na iha, hindi ako nakakita”. Being surprise from what I heard, as if I did not think about it, I replied,”Po?eh, ba’t wla po kayong sunglass?”. I saw the man, slightly grinned on my reactions. And then, he replied, “hindi ako nagsusuot ng sunglass dahi hindi naman talaga ako totally bulag, nakaka aninag ako ng liwanag kahit papaano”. In few seconds I lost words to respond. I look around, I saw how the place was so dangerous and then I look back at the man I was talking and stared on him. I ask him, “kuya, gabi na po..umuulan pa, hindi po ba kayo natatakot sa daan?” the man replied on me.”hindi na, nakasanayan na eh” ,then, I asked, "ba’t niyo pong nagagawang gumala sa daan eh, hindi naman po kayo nakakita? He replied, ”kailangan anak, may pamilya akong binubuhay”, and I said, ”po? may naghahanapbuhay po kayo para sa pamilya niyo po?”.The man answered, "Oo, nagamamasahe ako jan sa may Cubao". Because I’ve known nothing about Cubao, i tried to ask how he get to his home. He replied, "sumasakay ako ng pa DASMARINIAS".And suddenly, I heard a voice shouting, ”oh..dasma..dasma..” I noticed the man I was talking to, that he slightly raised his stick and slightly forwarded his right foot. And then I shout, “mama, pa dasma po itong si kuya..pasakay niyo naman po”Tthen, the man took his steps away, and I heard his last voice telling, “cge iha, mauna na ako saiyo, ingat"

The conversation only took less than a minute. But, it was an unforgettable one. For so many times, I saw blind people walking on the street, and I never fail to stare or took a glance at them, why?, hoping for a stare or glance at them, I could see it’s invisible boat. I wonder, what kind of faith, hope and courage they have that they endure to take steps a way into their home or I may say, continue to go through without seeing anything at all.

I may not have their answers. But, there is a thought that came to me at the moment of remembering the blind man. That faith, courage and hope is not just beyond at eyes at all. It’s not the sense of sight that is always the witness of those. Beauty and strength of life is totally coming from deep within.

PURSUIT OF HAPPINESS

Pain, diminishes happiness. Being in pain, you forgot to be happy. Bearing different masks just to compensate with the surroundings, you can almost forget who is the real person, within you. When you are in deep pain, you loose gradually your chosen directions until you have nowhere to find one, but to focus on the pain that you felt inside. It burns gradually your system of being happy until you have nothing but the feeling of being hurt. Your world that are once full of hopes are then narrowed down. How well you’ve been from the past, became unintentionally unremembered. Your thoughts of hopes and happiness loose somewhere out there. How you strive to fight for your weaknesses through out your life became meaningless and all strengths are all fallen to the ground. As gravity of pain gets stronger, the stronger it will pull you down and the harder you will push through to pull yourself up.
The way we perceive pain is totally different from anyone else, for pain is a subjective matter. With the same issue, for some, it is just quiet and easy to cope. For others, even how difficult it is, still, they choose to face it and break the pain from within. But for some, rather to face it with a lot of grief, they choose to kneel down and ask for death to escape. And, for some, they choose or unintentionally forgot that somebody is up high and choose to command the time of their death.
We can never tell, how an individual go through with their pain, or how does it really hurt them. Even we’ve been with the same condition, yet, we can’t deny the fact that human as we are, are totally different. We have different strengths, weaknesses, perceptions, thoughts, hopes, happiness, approaches, etc. Some says that, pain is something that is unintentionally unshared. Even how many times you shared it among to those closest to your heart, still pain is present. The deeper the pain is, the more it is difficult to speak out, how does it really hurts.
For many people who go through pain, even they have no more directions to choose where and how to go through, still they hold on. With thy little strength and grains of faith, believing they can’t although they want the world to halt they go through with their life. Though too dark their path is, still they wish to see the light. With countless stumble and fall episodes, they still choose to creep just to stand up. They still believe, that someday, they will go to find a journey of happiness. Even, how deep the pain strike through their vein, still they live to PURSUIT HAPPINESS.
Have you been through in deep pain? Tell me, how you dealt with it. How you find happiness from it?